Front Porch Reflections
Flip the Script
I’ve noticed over the years that grief has a way of settling into the stories we tell ourselves. Sometimes those stories are true, and sometimes they become so familiar we stop questioning them.
You’ll never feel joy again.
Your life is over.
Everyone else gets to move forward but you.
I understand those thoughts more than I wish I did.
A few years ago, I wrote the following reverse poem after thinking about how differently life can look depending on which direction we’re facing and which lens we’re looking through. Sometimes the smallest shift in perspective doesn’t erase grief, but it changes the way we carry it.
FLIP THE SCRIPT
by Charlene Paul · 7/2022
There is no joy
Never again will I say
I am happy because
It isn’t right—the fact is
I will never be happy
My heart will always be broken
Believing I will never heal
Is painful
Staying stuck
Is the natural thing to do
Moving forward
Is not something I want to do
I know that
I will always be broken
That will all be true
Unless I flip the script
Unless I flip the script
That will all be true
I will always be broken
I know that
Is not something I want to do
Moving forward
Is the natural thing to do
Staying stuck
Is painful
Believing I will never heal
My heart will always be broken
I will never be happy
It isn’t right—the fact is
I am happy because
Never again will I say
There is no joy
— Charlene