Flip the Script

I’ve noticed over the years that grief has a way of settling into the stories we tell ourselves. Sometimes those stories are true, and sometimes they become so familiar we stop questioning them.

You’ll never feel joy again.
Your life is over.
Everyone else gets to move forward but you.

I understand those thoughts more than I wish I did.

A few years ago, I wrote the following reverse poem after thinking about how differently life can look depending on which direction we’re facing and which lens we’re looking through. Sometimes the smallest shift in perspective doesn’t erase grief, but it changes the way we carry it.

FLIP THE SCRIPT

by Charlene Paul · 7/2022

There is no joy

Never again will I say

I am happy because

It isn’t right—the fact is

I will never be happy

My heart will always be broken

Believing I will never heal

Is painful

Staying stuck

Is the natural thing to do

Moving forward

Is not something I want to do

I know that

I will always be broken

That will all be true

Unless I flip the script

Unless I flip the script

That will all be true

I will always be broken

I know that

Is not something I want to do

Moving forward

Is the natural thing to do

Staying stuck

Is painful

Believing I will never heal

My heart will always be broken

I will never be happy

It isn’t right—the fact is

I am happy because

Never again will I say

There is no joy

— Charlene